July 5, 2026
"One Year Later: Life After Loving Someone With Bipolar 1 and Psychosis"
"One year ago, I left a 10-year relationship with a partner living with Bipolar 1 Disorder and psychosis. In this short episode, I reflect on what's changed — for me — and what I've learned about caregiving, boundaries, and healing on the other side. If you're a partner, spouse, or caregiver of someone with bipolar disorder or psychosis, this one's for you.
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Hello everybody, I'm going to
talk today a little bit about my
2
00:00:05,440 --> 00:00:08,920
experiences.
I usually do bipolar one, wife
3
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10 years.
Every bipolar person is
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00:00:11,640 --> 00:00:14,080
different.
I'm giving you an update how I
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00:00:14,080 --> 00:00:19,480
feel after one year of leaving.
It's been tough, by far the most
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difficult time in my life.
How do you leave a woman that
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you so dearly love, that was
your world that you spent every
8
00:00:28,200 --> 00:00:33,920
day with for years and years and
years and literally it was, it
9
00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:36,680
was, it was literally tearing me
apart.
10
00:00:38,400 --> 00:00:40,720
I'll break up in this.
I usually do.
11
00:00:42,200 --> 00:00:47,680
All I can tell you is after a
year, for me at least, after a
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00:00:47,680 --> 00:00:50,920
year, we were together 10 years.
I still cry every day.
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00:00:51,960 --> 00:00:56,320
I'm still broken up every day.
I still think of the incredibly
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00:00:56,320 --> 00:00:59,840
wonderful times we had, and you
have to be.
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If you're been discarded,
whatever.
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And I know everybody says to do
it.
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I have to remember the bad
times, the bad times throwing me
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out when I was in a wheelchair.
How could somebody scream and
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yell at the love they've been
together for 10 years and tell
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them to get the hell out of the
house and you're in a
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wheelchair.
And no, I wasn't wielding a gun.
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You know what I'm talking about.
I still cry on this everyday.
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I'm getting better by far, no
question.
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I quite frankly literally don't
understand how I managed to make
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it.
I would.
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I've never been through anything
like this.
27
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Have you read listened to any of
my other podcasts?
28
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This actually the reason I'm
talking is because I watched the
29
00:01:45,280 --> 00:01:49,360
latest Top Gun movie and he
talked about don't think, just
30
00:01:49,360 --> 00:01:52,000
do.
If you've listened to anything
31
00:01:52,320 --> 00:01:56,240
that I've talked about here on
different podcasts, I literally
32
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had to tell myself that the last
day I was there, the last two or
33
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three days, the only thing I
could do is don't think, just do
34
00:02:03,920 --> 00:02:05,880
because I knew my body was
shutting down.
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My mind was shutting down.
She was completely manic.
36
00:02:09,520 --> 00:02:14,120
Again it was just I guess what
I'm trying to do is not just sit
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00:02:14,120 --> 00:02:19,120
here and cry, bitch and moan is
to give you all hope that I made
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it a year.
It's been a year and a month for
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me.
I can't believe it's gone that
40
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fast.
I can't tell you the terror I
41
00:02:25,600 --> 00:02:31,120
felt the literal times,
especially the first month that
42
00:02:31,120 --> 00:02:33,520
I felt like an elephant was
sitting on my chest.
43
00:02:34,000 --> 00:02:37,680
There's literally such things
because I googled it as a broken
44
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heart syndrome and where I moved
to.
45
00:02:41,320 --> 00:02:44,160
Didn't know soul, still
basically don't other than some
46
00:02:44,160 --> 00:02:47,880
people at the gym.
So I go to the gym three times a
47
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week.
I'm going to water therapy
48
00:02:49,400 --> 00:02:52,360
tomorrow to hopefully get me
back walking again.
49
00:02:53,800 --> 00:02:56,360
But I can just say please give
yourself grace.
50
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I've heard that over and over
again.
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If you break down crying, so be
it.
52
00:03:01,480 --> 00:03:04,360
You're going to be sitting there
and have a great day just like I
53
00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:07,640
have been.
All of a sudden some memory pops
54
00:03:07,640 --> 00:03:09,480
into your mind and you fall
apart.
55
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Sorry, just be saying that how
funny she was, how fun she was,
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00:03:21,680 --> 00:03:27,280
funny, loving, caring and
emotionally destroyed me and I'm
57
00:03:27,280 --> 00:03:31,480
better now.
But please talk to a therapist.
58
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Please talk to anybody that you
can though.
59
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I understand something and
everybody that knows this knows
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00:03:38,640 --> 00:03:41,280
what I'm going to say.
How do you talk about the?
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Same shit over and over again.
I mean I can't talk to this
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about my son and he is the
absolute best of all worlds.
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Calls me almost every day is
wonderful, but I can't talk to
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him.
People think Christ man, you let
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the OK you got divorce get over.
It go next, next next go date
66
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somebody really I want to.
Date somebody right now.
67
00:04:04,040 --> 00:04:05,680
That's the worst thing that
happened in the world.
68
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Why?
Because I think they're all
69
00:04:06,920 --> 00:04:10,120
freaking bipolar.
I mean, and bipolar could be
70
00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:14,520
very good don't get me wrong.
I'm just wanted I'm not even
71
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making a really long one here.
I'm just giving you
72
00:04:16,760 --> 00:04:19,519
encouragement and say please
keep going.
73
00:04:19,800 --> 00:04:22,880
Do not, do not go back with
them.
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Don't do it.
Thank God my wife went no
75
00:04:26,160 --> 00:04:30,000
contact with me.
So anyway, that's a whole nother
76
00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:32,680
story.
But don't contact him.
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00:04:32,680 --> 00:04:33,960
Don't.
Get back with him.
78
00:04:34,320 --> 00:04:38,480
I'm so sorry, but the odds of
being in a relationship with a
79
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bipolar person are extremely
difficult.
80
00:04:41,760 --> 00:04:46,800
OK, they do work, but if there's
that push pull dynamic that we
81
00:04:46,800 --> 00:04:49,800
had and the back and forth and
then people getting back
82
00:04:49,800 --> 00:04:53,240
together and then, you know, a
year, six months, whatever,
83
00:04:53,240 --> 00:04:55,960
later, boom, here we go, another
cycle.
84
00:04:56,440 --> 00:04:59,880
I'm not going to say I know
anything that much about bipolar
85
00:05:00,160 --> 00:05:02,760
other than I've literally lived
it for 10 years.
86
00:05:03,040 --> 00:05:06,640
I've done nothing but research
it and think about it and cry
87
00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:09,760
about it for a year, which makes
me a freaking expert.
88
00:05:10,200 --> 00:05:12,840
An expert in something that I
want nothing to do with being an
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expert in.
I love you guys.
90
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This is a short one, but hang in
there.
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00:05:19,080 --> 00:05:19,400
Bye.
00:00:00,800 --> 00:00:05,440
Hello everybody, I'm going to
talk today a little bit about my
2
00:00:05,440 --> 00:00:08,920
experiences.
I usually do bipolar one, wife
3
00:00:09,000 --> 00:00:11,640
10 years.
Every bipolar person is
4
00:00:11,640 --> 00:00:14,080
different.
I'm giving you an update how I
5
00:00:14,080 --> 00:00:19,480
feel after one year of leaving.
It's been tough, by far the most
6
00:00:19,480 --> 00:00:22,840
difficult time in my life.
How do you leave a woman that
7
00:00:22,840 --> 00:00:28,200
you so dearly love, that was
your world that you spent every
8
00:00:28,200 --> 00:00:33,920
day with for years and years and
years and literally it was, it
9
00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:36,680
was, it was literally tearing me
apart.
10
00:00:38,400 --> 00:00:40,720
I'll break up in this.
I usually do.
11
00:00:42,200 --> 00:00:47,680
All I can tell you is after a
year, for me at least, after a
12
00:00:47,680 --> 00:00:50,920
year, we were together 10 years.
I still cry every day.
13
00:00:51,960 --> 00:00:56,320
I'm still broken up every day.
I still think of the incredibly
14
00:00:56,320 --> 00:00:59,840
wonderful times we had, and you
have to be.
15
00:00:59,840 --> 00:01:02,280
If you're been discarded,
whatever.
16
00:01:02,280 --> 00:01:04,040
And I know everybody says to do
it.
17
00:01:04,560 --> 00:01:08,160
I have to remember the bad
times, the bad times throwing me
18
00:01:08,160 --> 00:01:12,080
out when I was in a wheelchair.
How could somebody scream and
19
00:01:12,080 --> 00:01:16,720
yell at the love they've been
together for 10 years and tell
20
00:01:16,720 --> 00:01:18,600
them to get the hell out of the
house and you're in a
21
00:01:18,600 --> 00:01:21,400
wheelchair.
And no, I wasn't wielding a gun.
22
00:01:21,400 --> 00:01:25,800
You know what I'm talking about.
I still cry on this everyday.
23
00:01:25,800 --> 00:01:28,720
I'm getting better by far, no
question.
24
00:01:29,080 --> 00:01:33,040
I quite frankly literally don't
understand how I managed to make
25
00:01:33,040 --> 00:01:34,720
it.
I would.
26
00:01:35,160 --> 00:01:37,320
I've never been through anything
like this.
27
00:01:38,200 --> 00:01:42,080
Have you read listened to any of
my other podcasts?
28
00:01:42,600 --> 00:01:45,280
This actually the reason I'm
talking is because I watched the
29
00:01:45,280 --> 00:01:49,360
latest Top Gun movie and he
talked about don't think, just
30
00:01:49,360 --> 00:01:52,000
do.
If you've listened to anything
31
00:01:52,320 --> 00:01:56,240
that I've talked about here on
different podcasts, I literally
32
00:01:56,240 --> 00:02:00,000
had to tell myself that the last
day I was there, the last two or
33
00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:03,920
three days, the only thing I
could do is don't think, just do
34
00:02:03,920 --> 00:02:05,880
because I knew my body was
shutting down.
35
00:02:05,880 --> 00:02:09,520
My mind was shutting down.
She was completely manic.
36
00:02:09,520 --> 00:02:14,120
Again it was just I guess what
I'm trying to do is not just sit
37
00:02:14,120 --> 00:02:19,120
here and cry, bitch and moan is
to give you all hope that I made
38
00:02:19,120 --> 00:02:21,120
it a year.
It's been a year and a month for
39
00:02:21,120 --> 00:02:22,800
me.
I can't believe it's gone that
40
00:02:22,800 --> 00:02:25,600
fast.
I can't tell you the terror I
41
00:02:25,600 --> 00:02:31,120
felt the literal times,
especially the first month that
42
00:02:31,120 --> 00:02:33,520
I felt like an elephant was
sitting on my chest.
43
00:02:34,000 --> 00:02:37,680
There's literally such things
because I googled it as a broken
44
00:02:37,680 --> 00:02:41,320
heart syndrome and where I moved
to.
45
00:02:41,320 --> 00:02:44,160
Didn't know soul, still
basically don't other than some
46
00:02:44,160 --> 00:02:47,880
people at the gym.
So I go to the gym three times a
47
00:02:47,880 --> 00:02:49,400
week.
I'm going to water therapy
48
00:02:49,400 --> 00:02:52,360
tomorrow to hopefully get me
back walking again.
49
00:02:53,800 --> 00:02:56,360
But I can just say please give
yourself grace.
50
00:02:56,640 --> 00:02:58,440
I've heard that over and over
again.
51
00:02:58,920 --> 00:03:01,040
If you break down crying, so be
it.
52
00:03:01,480 --> 00:03:04,360
You're going to be sitting there
and have a great day just like I
53
00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:07,640
have been.
All of a sudden some memory pops
54
00:03:07,640 --> 00:03:09,480
into your mind and you fall
apart.
55
00:03:11,960 --> 00:03:20,440
Sorry, just be saying that how
funny she was, how fun she was,
56
00:03:21,680 --> 00:03:27,280
funny, loving, caring and
emotionally destroyed me and I'm
57
00:03:27,280 --> 00:03:31,480
better now.
But please talk to a therapist.
58
00:03:32,120 --> 00:03:35,000
Please talk to anybody that you
can though.
59
00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:38,640
I understand something and
everybody that knows this knows
60
00:03:38,640 --> 00:03:41,280
what I'm going to say.
How do you talk about the?
61
00:03:41,280 --> 00:03:45,520
Same shit over and over again.
I mean I can't talk to this
62
00:03:45,520 --> 00:03:48,880
about my son and he is the
absolute best of all worlds.
63
00:03:49,160 --> 00:03:52,280
Calls me almost every day is
wonderful, but I can't talk to
64
00:03:52,280 --> 00:03:54,720
him.
People think Christ man, you let
65
00:03:54,720 --> 00:03:59,040
the OK you got divorce get over.
It go next, next next go date
66
00:03:59,040 --> 00:04:04,040
somebody really I want to.
Date somebody right now.
67
00:04:04,040 --> 00:04:05,680
That's the worst thing that
happened in the world.
68
00:04:05,680 --> 00:04:06,920
Why?
Because I think they're all
69
00:04:06,920 --> 00:04:10,120
freaking bipolar.
I mean, and bipolar could be
70
00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:14,520
very good don't get me wrong.
I'm just wanted I'm not even
71
00:04:14,520 --> 00:04:16,760
making a really long one here.
I'm just giving you
72
00:04:16,760 --> 00:04:19,519
encouragement and say please
keep going.
73
00:04:19,800 --> 00:04:22,880
Do not, do not go back with
them.
74
00:04:23,720 --> 00:04:26,160
Don't do it.
Thank God my wife went no
75
00:04:26,160 --> 00:04:30,000
contact with me.
So anyway, that's a whole nother
76
00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:32,680
story.
But don't contact him.
77
00:04:32,680 --> 00:04:33,960
Don't.
Get back with him.
78
00:04:34,320 --> 00:04:38,480
I'm so sorry, but the odds of
being in a relationship with a
79
00:04:38,480 --> 00:04:41,040
bipolar person are extremely
difficult.
80
00:04:41,760 --> 00:04:46,800
OK, they do work, but if there's
that push pull dynamic that we
81
00:04:46,800 --> 00:04:49,800
had and the back and forth and
then people getting back
82
00:04:49,800 --> 00:04:53,240
together and then, you know, a
year, six months, whatever,
83
00:04:53,240 --> 00:04:55,960
later, boom, here we go, another
cycle.
84
00:04:56,440 --> 00:04:59,880
I'm not going to say I know
anything that much about bipolar
85
00:05:00,160 --> 00:05:02,760
other than I've literally lived
it for 10 years.
86
00:05:03,040 --> 00:05:06,640
I've done nothing but research
it and think about it and cry
87
00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:09,760
about it for a year, which makes
me a freaking expert.
88
00:05:10,200 --> 00:05:12,840
An expert in something that I
want nothing to do with being an
89
00:05:12,840 --> 00:05:15,440
expert in.
I love you guys.
90
00:05:15,640 --> 00:05:18,760
This is a short one, but hang in
there.
91
00:05:19,080 --> 00:05:19,400
Bye.