May 25, 2026
Bipolar Disorder, Cheating, and Emotional Affairs — What Partners Need to Know
If you've been betrayed by a partner with bipolar disorder, you're not alone — and you're probably desperate for answers that make sense of what happened. On The Other Side of Bipolar, we go where most conversations won't: the painful reality of hypersexuality, impulsivity, and emotional affairs that can accompany manic and hypomanic episodes, and what that means for the partner left trying to pick up the pieces. This isn't about excusing the behavior — it's about understanding the neurological reality behind it, processing your own trauma, and figuring out whether repair is possible or whether it's time to protect yourself. If you've been gaslit, blindsided, or told it " they're just a friend" this episode is for you.
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Today we're going to talk about
bipolar cheating, affairs,
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cheating and everything else
they say.
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I've seen some statistics, 5080%
of bipolar people cheat.
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That's outrageous.
Outrageous.
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Why?
Because the bottom line is I
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can't tell you how many times
I've read over and over and over
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again, bipolar is no excuse to
cheat. 0 excuse.
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If you're putting up with it,
that's because you're allowing
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it, and the more you allow it,
the more they do it.
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Period.
Bipolar one over and over and
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over again on the different
forms say the same thing.
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I get hypersexual, yes.
Very few become hypersexual on
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their partner like we all
probably had when it started.
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Because you probably got
together with your spouse when
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they were hyper, when they were
manic, and when they're manic,
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they're hypersexual.
So they bop the crap out of you
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for three or four months or
whatever it is, and then all of
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a sudden it's down to 0.
What I'm getting to here is
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people, the cheating is
cheating.
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If you allow cheating, it will
happen again.
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I'm sorry, it just, it just
does.
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I mean, mine cheated.
She had an affair, OK.
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She had an emotional affair at
the gym and this is exactly what
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happened.
And it just destroyed me.
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And to this day she still
doesn't get it.
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She was going to the gym to make
herself better.
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That's awesome.
I encouraged her.
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Then she comes back one day from
the gym and says, hey, I met
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this guy.
I knew him too, married to
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another lady that I know, and
she said yeah, we're working out
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together every day.
I said OK, whatever.
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Then I found out they're
coordinating the same time to be
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there together.
They're meeting up at 5:00 in
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the gym and literally another
part of the gym that nobody's
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in.
The gym is divided up into two
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sections.
One section is almost blacked
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out.
They were in there at 5:00 in
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the morning with nobody else
around.
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Ding, Ding, Ding, Ding.
First red flag.
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Then I she came back to me one
time at the house, I still
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remember where I was standing
and she said yeah, Kenny is his
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name.
Kenny was talking about how much
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his wife drinks all the time,
hides bottles around the house
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and gambles compulsively, all
the money away, blah blah blah.
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And I looked at my wife and I
said that's inappropriate.
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That should not be going on
between 2 married couples and I
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need for you to break that off
because it's wrong.
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She looked at me and said I'm
not doing anything wrong and I'm
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going to continue doing it.
I went.
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Then over the next three months
she did not change.
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She kept going with this guy
when I was clearly emotionally
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destroyed and distraught.
She didn't give a shit.
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Didn't matter to her.
Then after three months of me,
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literally I can't tell you how
depressed I was because this was
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6-7 years into the marriage and
I had no idea that my wife could
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break trust like that.
Because for me, whenever you
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prioritize another man over your
own husband, that's called
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disrespect in the highest order
and not giving a shit what your
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partner thinks.
Period.
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Destroyed my trust.
OK, after three months, I guess
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when she saw I was so distraught
for so long, she went ahead and
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decided that she was going to go
with two of her surface level
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friends because she doesn't have
I'm almost any lifelong friends
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that are any good and talk to
them about it without me there
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and without telling me.
And then one of her friends
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comes up to me and says, oh, you
have nothing to worry about.
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That's called, what is it,
triangulation.
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I learned that word.
Why the fuck didn't they include
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me?
Huh?
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Because she was making sure that
make me look like shit, solidify
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her position, control me and
tell me and gaslight me that
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that's OK.
I was destroyed financially.
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I couldn't leave at that point.
But for me at that point, the
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marriage was over.
It was just was.
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Sure enough, about three years
later she went ahead and did it
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again, this time for me.
Now going back to the guy at the
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gym, do I know if they did
anything at the gym?
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Have no idea.
I don't know if they kissed, if
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they humped, if they did the
dump.
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They do.
I don't know.
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I went there two or three times
in the morning, at 5:30 in the
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morning, there was nobody else
there, just them.
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So anyway, to me the trust was
broken because of what I said
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after that right before I left,
which really solidified me
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leaving even though the year
before I made all the plans to
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do it was we went to a club,
which is a bar, but it's an
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American veterans and she was
openly checking out another guy
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that walked in flirting with him
openly right in front of me
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without her wedding rings on.
And then at the end of the
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flirting, I guess the guy asked
her, are you married?
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She looked at me and pointed a
finger at me said yeah, that's
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my husband.
I went, that's the most
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embarrassing thing and it
reminded me of big time
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Alcoholics.
They're the same way.
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They just don't give a shit
about how it affects other
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people around him.
With that, I was done.
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Mind you, once again, if you've
been reading at all or listening
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to me, I was in a wheelchair,
but I knew it was coming again
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and I got myself.
I pushed myself to the limit
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every day to be able to drive a
car to get out of there because
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I knew what was coming.
She went to ultra ultra rapid
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cycling where they change every
few minutes their emotions.
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She was throwing me out, yelling
and screaming at me and then the
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next minute cutting my hair and
laughing and having a great
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time.
Then going back if I said
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anything she didn't like
screaming and yelling at me and
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kicking me out of the house.
So anyway, it was a pure mess.
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But what I'm getting to is
cheating is supposedly part of
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the deal of hypersexuality.
However, I can't tell you how
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many times I read either the
bipolar people say one, I'd
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never cheat on my husband or
two, if I get hypersexual I
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attack my husband.
Which, OK, I'm a guy, if my wife
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wants to come in and attack me
sexually and turn me every which
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way but loose, count me in, I'm
done.
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I'm a happy camper.
But her hypersexuality was
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geared towards other people.
It was more about validation.
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It was more about seeking other
guys, chasing her.
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That's not a person you can put
your love into and she had a
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responsibility to do that and
she didn't do it.
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Why now that I've been able to
leave for a year and figure this
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crap out?
She drank all the time.
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She drank once or twice a week
to binge drinking, she smoked
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cigarettes, she gambled like a
fish when she could and she went
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on every cruise of available and
took THC gummies.
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All of those destabilize the
bipolar person.
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She was taking bipolar meds.
I don't know which one cuz she
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wouldn't let me get involved.
At the first she did, but after
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that she didn't.
So she didn't take care of
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herself and I paid for the
price.
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I paid the price.
You, if you're listening to this
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and your spouse is bipolar and
they're doing these things that
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I'm talking to you about, you're
responsible for not leaving.
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You like the pain, then I'm
being kind of mean here because
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that's what it takes.
You're not responsible for them.
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You're not responsible for
taking care of them and making
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sure they're taking their meds.
If they love you, they will do
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these things.
If they don't love you or if
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it's just a convenience, which I
believe a lot of times it is,
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they will do this over and over
again because the at the end of
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the day, they don't want you to
leave.
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I know that doesn't sound anyway
correct, but it is.
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They don't want you to leave,
but they won't be able.
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They want to be able to play in
the sandbox and do whatever they
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want.
And the minute you let them do
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it once, they'll do it again and
again because in the back of
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their mind they're going, I
probably shouldn't do this, but
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you know what?
They didn't do anything last
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time.
And it feels so good to have
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these guys gawking at me.
Even if I don't fucking, I'll be
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OK.
Well, I don't give a shit if
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you're doing the deed with him
or not.
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If you disrespect somebody that
bad and they walk away, it's
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their fault.
You didn't do anything for that.
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So anyway, I'm a little hyped up
on this crap because I'm angry
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today.
OK, I've been nice, angry
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crying, but I'm a year out and
I'm stupid for staying.
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Don't get me wrong, I was there
for 10 years.
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I should have left her and I
tried on numerous occasions just
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like a lot of other people say
too.
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However, I finally set myself up
and I got the hell out and I'm
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sure she's trashed my name and
run it through the mud and said
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I got all kinds of problems and
everything.
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All I knew was I had to get out
of there because I'm not going.
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I have more love for myself than
to be disrespected by that kind
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of crap.
Oh and this doesn't even go into
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the fact that the same time of
the fair in the gym, the same
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guy was at the club that we went
to and you should have seen her.
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She was sitting right across
from me on several occasions,
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literally Google eyed at this
dude, admiring him.
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He was standing there.
I'll never forget.
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I'm watching her and him and
she's looking at him like he's
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God.
And then she takes her hand,
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puts it up in the air and puts
it right on top of his, on top
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of his hand.
I went good God, did I put up
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with it?
Yes.
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Am I stupid because of it?
Yes.
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But I'm not stupid forever.
Wake up people.
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If they cheat on you, they will
do it again and you will stay
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with it.
Now saying this as well, if you
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got kids, I understand.
I know it's not easy to leave
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something like that.
A lot of people stay together
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because of the kids and then
once the kids get out of high
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school or college, they're gone.
Wake up, take care of yourself.
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You have to because they will
drive you in the ground if you
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let them.
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Today we're going to talk about
bipolar cheating, affairs,
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cheating and everything else
they say.
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I've seen some statistics, 5080%
of bipolar people cheat.
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That's outrageous.
Outrageous.
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Why?
Because the bottom line is I
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can't tell you how many times
I've read over and over and over
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again, bipolar is no excuse to
cheat. 0 excuse.
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If you're putting up with it,
that's because you're allowing
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it, and the more you allow it,
the more they do it.
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Period.
Bipolar one over and over and
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over again on the different
forms say the same thing.
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I get hypersexual, yes.
Very few become hypersexual on
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their partner like we all
probably had when it started.
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Because you probably got
together with your spouse when
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they were hyper, when they were
manic, and when they're manic,
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they're hypersexual.
So they bop the crap out of you
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for three or four months or
whatever it is, and then all of
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a sudden it's down to 0.
What I'm getting to here is
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people, the cheating is
cheating.
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If you allow cheating, it will
happen again.
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I'm sorry, it just, it just
does.
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I mean, mine cheated.
She had an affair, OK.
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She had an emotional affair at
the gym and this is exactly what
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happened.
And it just destroyed me.
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And to this day she still
doesn't get it.
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She was going to the gym to make
herself better.
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That's awesome.
I encouraged her.
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Then she comes back one day from
the gym and says, hey, I met
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this guy.
I knew him too, married to
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another lady that I know, and
she said yeah, we're working out
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together every day.
I said OK, whatever.
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Then I found out they're
coordinating the same time to be
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there together.
They're meeting up at 5:00 in
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the gym and literally another
part of the gym that nobody's
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in.
The gym is divided up into two
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sections.
One section is almost blacked
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out.
They were in there at 5:00 in
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the morning with nobody else
around.
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Ding, Ding, Ding, Ding.
First red flag.
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Then I she came back to me one
time at the house, I still
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remember where I was standing
and she said yeah, Kenny is his
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name.
Kenny was talking about how much
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his wife drinks all the time,
hides bottles around the house
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and gambles compulsively, all
the money away, blah blah blah.
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And I looked at my wife and I
said that's inappropriate.
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That should not be going on
between 2 married couples and I
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need for you to break that off
because it's wrong.
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She looked at me and said I'm
not doing anything wrong and I'm
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going to continue doing it.
I went.
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Then over the next three months
she did not change.
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She kept going with this guy
when I was clearly emotionally
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destroyed and distraught.
She didn't give a shit.
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Didn't matter to her.
Then after three months of me,
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literally I can't tell you how
depressed I was because this was
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6-7 years into the marriage and
I had no idea that my wife could
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break trust like that.
Because for me, whenever you
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prioritize another man over your
own husband, that's called
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disrespect in the highest order
and not giving a shit what your
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partner thinks.
Period.
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Destroyed my trust.
OK, after three months, I guess
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when she saw I was so distraught
for so long, she went ahead and
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decided that she was going to go
with two of her surface level
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friends because she doesn't have
I'm almost any lifelong friends
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that are any good and talk to
them about it without me there
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and without telling me.
And then one of her friends
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comes up to me and says, oh, you
have nothing to worry about.
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That's called, what is it,
triangulation.
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I learned that word.
Why the fuck didn't they include
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me?
Huh?
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Because she was making sure that
make me look like shit, solidify
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her position, control me and
tell me and gaslight me that
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that's OK.
I was destroyed financially.
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I couldn't leave at that point.
But for me at that point, the
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marriage was over.
It was just was.
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Sure enough, about three years
later she went ahead and did it
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again, this time for me.
Now going back to the guy at the
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gym, do I know if they did
anything at the gym?
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Have no idea.
I don't know if they kissed, if
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they humped, if they did the
dump.
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They do.
I don't know.
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I went there two or three times
in the morning, at 5:30 in the
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morning, there was nobody else
there, just them.
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So anyway, to me the trust was
broken because of what I said
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after that right before I left,
which really solidified me
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leaving even though the year
before I made all the plans to
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do it was we went to a club,
which is a bar, but it's an
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American veterans and she was
openly checking out another guy
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that walked in flirting with him
openly right in front of me
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without her wedding rings on.
And then at the end of the
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flirting, I guess the guy asked
her, are you married?
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She looked at me and pointed a
finger at me said yeah, that's
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my husband.
I went, that's the most
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embarrassing thing and it
reminded me of big time
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Alcoholics.
They're the same way.
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They just don't give a shit
about how it affects other
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people around him.
With that, I was done.
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Mind you, once again, if you've
been reading at all or listening
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to me, I was in a wheelchair,
but I knew it was coming again
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and I got myself.
I pushed myself to the limit
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every day to be able to drive a
car to get out of there because
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I knew what was coming.
She went to ultra ultra rapid
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cycling where they change every
few minutes their emotions.
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She was throwing me out, yelling
and screaming at me and then the
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next minute cutting my hair and
laughing and having a great
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time.
Then going back if I said
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anything she didn't like
screaming and yelling at me and
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kicking me out of the house.
So anyway, it was a pure mess.
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But what I'm getting to is
cheating is supposedly part of
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the deal of hypersexuality.
However, I can't tell you how
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many times I read either the
bipolar people say one, I'd
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never cheat on my husband or
two, if I get hypersexual I
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attack my husband.
Which, OK, I'm a guy, if my wife
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wants to come in and attack me
sexually and turn me every which
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way but loose, count me in, I'm
done.
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I'm a happy camper.
But her hypersexuality was
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geared towards other people.
It was more about validation.
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It was more about seeking other
guys, chasing her.
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That's not a person you can put
your love into and she had a
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responsibility to do that and
she didn't do it.
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Why now that I've been able to
leave for a year and figure this
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crap out?
She drank all the time.
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She drank once or twice a week
to binge drinking, she smoked
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cigarettes, she gambled like a
fish when she could and she went
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on every cruise of available and
took THC gummies.
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All of those destabilize the
bipolar person.
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She was taking bipolar meds.
I don't know which one cuz she
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wouldn't let me get involved.
At the first she did, but after
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that she didn't.
So she didn't take care of
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herself and I paid for the
price.
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I paid the price.
You, if you're listening to this
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and your spouse is bipolar and
they're doing these things that
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I'm talking to you about, you're
responsible for not leaving.
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You like the pain, then I'm
being kind of mean here because
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that's what it takes.
You're not responsible for them.
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You're not responsible for
taking care of them and making
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sure they're taking their meds.
If they love you, they will do
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these things.
If they don't love you or if
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it's just a convenience, which I
believe a lot of times it is,
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they will do this over and over
again because the at the end of
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the day, they don't want you to
leave.
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I know that doesn't sound anyway
correct, but it is.
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They don't want you to leave,
but they won't be able.
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They want to be able to play in
the sandbox and do whatever they
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want.
And the minute you let them do
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it once, they'll do it again and
again because in the back of
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their mind they're going, I
probably shouldn't do this, but
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you know what?
They didn't do anything last
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time.
And it feels so good to have
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these guys gawking at me.
Even if I don't fucking, I'll be
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OK.
Well, I don't give a shit if
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you're doing the deed with him
or not.
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If you disrespect somebody that
bad and they walk away, it's
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their fault.
You didn't do anything for that.
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So anyway, I'm a little hyped up
on this crap because I'm angry
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today.
OK, I've been nice, angry
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crying, but I'm a year out and
I'm stupid for staying.
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Don't get me wrong, I was there
for 10 years.
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I should have left her and I
tried on numerous occasions just
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like a lot of other people say
too.
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However, I finally set myself up
and I got the hell out and I'm
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sure she's trashed my name and
run it through the mud and said
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I got all kinds of problems and
everything.
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All I knew was I had to get out
of there because I'm not going.
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I have more love for myself than
to be disrespected by that kind
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of crap.
Oh and this doesn't even go into
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the fact that the same time of
the fair in the gym, the same
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guy was at the club that we went
to and you should have seen her.
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She was sitting right across
from me on several occasions,
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literally Google eyed at this
dude, admiring him.
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He was standing there.
I'll never forget.
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I'm watching her and him and
she's looking at him like he's
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God.
And then she takes her hand,
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puts it up in the air and puts
it right on top of his, on top
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of his hand.
I went good God, did I put up
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with it?
Yes.
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Am I stupid because of it?
Yes.
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But I'm not stupid forever.
Wake up people.
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If they cheat on you, they will
do it again and you will stay
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with it.
Now saying this as well, if you
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got kids, I understand.
I know it's not easy to leave
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something like that.
A lot of people stay together
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because of the kids and then
once the kids get out of high
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school or college, they're gone.
Wake up, take care of yourself.
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You have to because they will
drive you in the ground if you
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let them.